one year old

One year ago today, Brian and I woke up in our borrowed condo in Chicago, got in the car, drove to our doctor's office, and Lila and her 14 brothers and sisters were created. It's hard to believe a year has gone by since our IVF retrieval date. I remember how nervous and excited and terrified and hopeful we were that day. All we wanted was for God to bless us with a baby. I remember falling asleep in the procedure room, praying that God would give skill and wisdom to all of the doctors who were going to have a hand in the medicine that would grow our baby. And then 5 days later, Lila and her brother Wrigley who is now in heaven were placed back inside me to grow.

We talk about how miraculous it is that Lila was the baby God gave us. It could have been any of those 14 other babies, and she would be a totally different person. But she's our Lila bean. And not a day goes by that I don't thank God for answering our prayers.

God does not exist to answer our prayers,

but by our prayers we come to discern

the mind of God.

~Oswald Chambers