And I know my stay at home mom friends think wistfully of our days spent at an office, talking to adults about actual current events (not singing the new Fresh Beats song "Here We Go" for the 23rd time in the last two hours), sitting at our desk browsing through email while drinking a cold diet coke with dry clean only outfits (without peanut butter smears), and having a day doing something that fulfilled our passions.
Basically all moms have mom envy from time to time. And right now, I have got a serious case in need of a quick shot of Shut-Your-Whining-icilin to the hiney. It is so easy to use the flippant response about how easy it would be to just stay home, especially in the mornings. When I am running around half naked trying to keep Lila away from the ironing board (and dog food bowls) while I pass an iron over my most wrinkle free clothing that hopefully passes as business casual, putting on makeup on my drive to daycare because if I try to put it on before I head downstairs than I sweat it all off before I get to work, chugging coffee into my empty stomach since who has time for breakfast, trying to pack up a diaper bag and laptop bag and purse (and make sure the pacis don't end up with the laptop cord), trying desperately to make it to work before 9:15 so I am not over fifteen minutes late AGAIN.
Some days it is hard to see that God gave us this life and it is a blessing to have two jobs that pay our bills. Sometimes it is hard to remind myself that God did not give me more than I can handle. That I am working damn hard and that is good enough for me and Lila and God. And that I have an amazing husband that runs outside with his tie undone to carry the baby out to her car seat even if it means he is late for work.
I am not afraid of storms for I am learning how to sail my ship.
~Louisa May Alcott